If Anything, I Love You
12 AM, sitting neat and quiet at your desk, sipping on your pink juice and listening to Apocalypse from Cigarettes After Sex. How does that feel? How do you evaluate your level of vibration? For some people, this sounds like a very sentimental, emo, and low experience, and they don't like that.
I used to be one of those criticized people who exploited their emotions to try to feel a deeper, rarer sensation of life. It didn't turn out great in the way I imagined of beautiful, flawless girls doing whatever and still looking perfect. It has been a while, and my perspective has changed, but I stumbled across the same situation as that one year ago, just with a different attitude.
No love letters in process, no mind-wanderings, no reminiscing about a glorious past, no wall-starings or hours of binging The Witcher, just slowly indulging in the moment and letting it sweep me away with a wave of warmth and peace, still with music through my ears and a cup, of juice, in my hand.
Anyways, does the title relate to any of this at all? I'm not sure, but I understand that, if anything, meaning if anything ever goes wrong, I still love you. And by you, I mean everything I've ever laid my eyes on, then felt, then cast my spell upon, then fallen in love with, connection.
It is just a silly thought of a slightly sleep-deprived person, but who knows? And you, have you ever felt that if anything, you will always be the one who loves and never regrets what you've done?
